Is this you?
Believe me, I’ve been there! I remember desperately trying to hide myself from the children so I could decompress without taking it out on anyone else. There was a time, when they were younger, when I literally felt I couldn’t get space anywhere, not even on the loo. Much as I hated to lose my temper, what I was really terrified of was actually hitting someone. So instead I would try to hide away and calm myself down.
I lost my temper on a regular basis and as soon as I exploded I would instantly regret it. I absolutely hated that feeling of losing control. There’s nothing worse than that awful feeling afterwards, when you realise you’ve lost it and it’s time to pick up the pieces and make amends. I’d describe it as a mournful mixture of humiliation, guilt and self-loathing.
Emotions can so easily become unbalanced especially during times of stress, overload, grief/loss and hormonal imbalance. In my case, during the time I’m thinking of, I could tick a number of those boxes. I still have ups and downs but losing the plot happens far less often. I have less pent up emotions and plenty of tools for managing them when they do arise. It took me time and work to find balance and also to develop compassion and self acceptance for myself in those moments.
It’s normal for emotions to fluctuate especially following the menstrual cycle. To have some days where you feel especially fragile, where you burst into tears or shout angrily is completely usual. But if each week is a rollercoaster ride of unpredictable moods and emotions, it may be time to address it.
Since I found this emotional quagmire such a challenge myself, I love helping other women to overcome this struggle and settle the emotional - hormonal rollercoaster.
Supporting other women and hearing their experiences inspired me to create my six-month harmonious hormones program. It’s also a way of combining my natural medicine skills with my personal and professional experiences. If this is something you might be interested in, do get in touch for more information.